2:30 AM

This post is slightly bittersweet I guess. There's so much running through my head right now. Part of me is happy but the other part is so frustrated and angry. I've got the best thing to happy about and the worst thing to be upset about. It's so annoying to be torn to pieces and then see yourself in situations where you swore you'd never be. The good is about the new Mr. in my life. He's quite amazing and he's instantly become the world to me. I'm sure you'll begin to see more and more of him on here. Especially since we both like taking pictures. The bad is about me and someone close to me. She thinks I don't appreciate her at all. She thinks I'm ungrateful and our fight ended with me basically saying to stop caring about me. She should. I think it'll make things easier on the both of us if she just gives up on caring about me. I'm moving out in 3 weeks and I have a feeling they're going to be rough. I've got one foot forward and one foot back. I've got so much ahead of me if I could just get unstuck and start walking forward. I finally found a guy who actually cares about me and who's willing to get to know me. I finally realize that when something just clicks you don't let it pass you by. You stop and turn and decide that hey, I should give this a shot because who knows? This could work. And lo and behold it works. It makes you smile like crazy and nothing else matters. You see the past and all you want to do is move on because you see such good things on the horizon. The hard part is letting go and being free of the things that have a hold on you. It makes you wanna smile and it makes you wanna cry. Either way you have no idea what to do and where to go. All you know is that you have to go somewhere.

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make our parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it

I can see it now.