All That I'm Asking For

This Sunday was far from what I had anticipated. Actually, I had no idea what was going to happen today so there was no anticipation that was possible. Church made sense this morning today. For the most part, it was about being real with who you are in Christ and living that out every day and making it a huge part of your life. I saw my friend, we'll call him....Anthony. I admire Anthony so much. He's the Christian that we should all strive to be. The short story of it is that Anthony liked a girl but God told him she wasn't right for him and he's listening. Most guys his age would say "screw it" without even paying attention, but not him. Anthony's giving up something he wants to do what God wants. Now that's a walk we all need to live. Whoever he marries will be the luckiest girl in the world, because not only is Anthony a great Christian, he's the most caring person I've ever met.

Next was the task of burying my guinea pig, Sydney. I'll admit that I should've realized that this is something WAY easier said then done. I partially dug the first whole only to find concrete!!! Then I dug another hole but had to dig the opposite direction when I realized there was a pipe there. Eventually after a couple hours of back breaking work I finished it. Only to find that the neighborhood cat decided to just up and kill a bird. Then to top it off it probably got lazy and left it on the porch. So along with burying Sydney, I buried the little bird too. Mom, Riese, and I said a few words and then it was off to the next thing.

The next thing was seeing the guy I've missed all week. I figured out that he missed me too. I guess the rest is self-explanatory. For me, and let's keep this between us, I listened to love songs yesterday. I can't remember when I did that last at all. I didn't even listen to them while I was dating that guy. Now I actually have butterflies.

I don't know what's on the road ahead of me, but I gotta say I'm loving every minute of it. I finally click with someone and those other guys just fell away in an instant. My every thought wasn't of them anymore, it was only about him and I can't believe it's happening like this at all.

I swear I'm learning to do this. I'm learning that I can't settle and that I can't ever put someone's happiness in place of my own. I'm not a maid. I won't bend over backwards for you. Let's just get that straight here and now. My heart's leading down a completely unexpected path and I think I simply adore where it's taking me.

And this was my summer..... :) to be continued of course!