Two Less Lonely People

I really like how some things just fall into place, or basically how two people can become friends so quickly. There are people in this world that you just instantly connect with immediately. I talked about this for hours with one of my friends, we decided that all it takes is a small connection that instantly ignites into a spark. Right now I'm in awe of this process, or whatever you want to call it, and how quickly and easily it falls together. This friend of mine wouldn't have come along if I was still in a relationship and he couldn't have come along at a better time. Looking back, I see everything falling into place and our friendship sinking deeper and deeper....

And it's cool to think about it that way, like I totally believe that everything happens for a reason. I know to some extent that's such a cliche but at the same time everything has to have a reason because God orchestrates everything in our lives. He gives hard things to some people because he knows they can handle it. I think I'm one of those lucky people and he is too. I know lucky may not seem like the right word but at the same time its all perspective. It's cool to think that God thinks you're strong enough to handle the big stuff that he throws at you. I've had A LOT thrown at me during my short 17 years on this earth. I've experienced more then some people will in their whole lives. I think that alone gives me strength to get through the little things, like a breakup, because I know things could be a whole lot worse because I've been through much worse. I've watched my family fall apart at the seams and alcohol rip apart the remains. I've seen the pain and heartache of a relationship that was just one sided. I've felt the pain of being alone and wanting to stay that way forever. I've grown up on yelling, screaming, and leaving love behind. Through all of this though, I'd like to say I've gained perspective unlike so many people my age. I've never had the comfort of stability ever. I would experience short bursts of it and then it'd be ripped away violently from me without a second thought. I've had to leave a lot behind and bring the small stuff along because I couldn't bare losing everything. Still today my life has no stability but i am learning to deal with it. There's no point in wanting something that won't happen.

So pretty much that's a big part of my life story I just spilled out. Honestly, I hope this boy stays in my life for awhile. He means so much to me and I'm so lucky to know him.