Life's a Mobile

My life's totally crazy. I think I forget that a lot. My life's also way different from a lot people. I think I forget that too. It's really easy to get caught up in your surroundings and lose who you are. I don't want to ever lose who I am again. I started to get so dependent on other people to determine who I am. Their name was my name and I was happy with that. Now though, there's a new situation ahead of me and no one can experience it but me. No one can be associated with it and live it because the situation is mine only to live. I have so much ahead of me and at times I think that God didn't want anything to hold me back. I think to some extent he wants me to experience this change to its fullest potential, even if that means I need to experience it alone. I'm not alone though. I may not have this one person who I am closest to, but I have people in my life that love and care about me. These people have stuck by me through all the rough patches and the happy smiles. They are people who have told me not to walk between the lines and to live life the way I want. They have showed me that there are times when its best to go the opposite direction and be happy about it. So yes, my current situation could be much better in my mind, but who knows? I can guarantee you right now that it'll be better the way I am at this very moment. I'm slowly coming into that reality. Love isn't all there is in life. It was my only goal, but now its not. I wanna live, really live my life. I want to look back on right now 10 years ago and go, "Wow. I really made the most of those years. I rocked!" So my life's a mobile, everything's changing, but I couldn't ask for more. Except for it to go faster, that is.